This day was a day that I was just depressed. The reds, blacks, and whites are so different from my other pieces. My critical, internal self that has been trained over time to see the worse in things, was speaking loudly. I had to remind myself not to lie to myself, that I wasn’t all those things, my internal self was telling me. Something had hit a trigger. A big trigger. I just needed to disarm it by telling myself the truth about who I was.